Mon, Aug 28th - 7:23PM
Its been three months since the Lord took my wife home. To me it seems like it has been a life time. I look at her pictures and think about the times we shared together. I really miss her. Every time I come home from work I walk in and say "honey I'm home, I love you and miss you so much." Then I thank the Lord for lending her to me for 41 years. I sometimes wonder why things happened the way they did. I know she's in a better place and with the Lord, happy and free of pain, praying and waiting for her loved ones to come home to her, but I still wonder why. Someday it will be revealed to me, but when I get to Heaven and see my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and her, it won't matter one bit. Everytime I get that sad feeling I get down on my face, before God and pray and worship him. I've been reading the book of Psalms backwards (chapters 150 to 1) For me it has taken a new meaning in my life. Every morning I'll read a Chapter, marking it in my Bible and writing it down and meditate on it the whole day and apply it to my life. In Psalm 114 the psalmist's says about when God brought the house of Isreal out of Egypt, the sea looked and fled, the Jordan River turned back, the mountains skipped like rams, the hills jumped like lambs, He smote the hard rock and water came out of it. The earth trembles at the presence of God.
There is nothing too hard for God!!! I read this thought that all I was going through, my aches and pains where just meat and potatoes to God. He is just waiting to fight the battle for you if you'll only let him into your life. I did and I know that I couldn't make it without him. Every morning I thank God for the day and ask the Holy Spirit to help me through it. In the book of Psalm it says:I love the Lord for he has heard my voice. He has heard my cry for mercey. Because he turned his ear to me, I will praise him as long as I live. As I wrote before, the night my wife was taken home I cried out and opened the Bible and the pages opened to Psalm chapter 27: 13- 14 I know that I will live to see the Lord's goodness in this present life. Trust in the Lord. Have faith, do not despair. Trust in the Lord. To me that was powerful. I saw that happening right away with my three children, their spouses and my grandchildren. I have been so blessed and thank God for everything.
My blessings - A mother who came out of a work camp in World War II and raised me in a Christian home...........A beautiful wife, mate, mother and my best friend for 41 years and who now is in Heaven............three beautiful children and their spouses........................six beautiful grandchildren............and a job that I have been at for 38 years.....................but most of all....the Lord.......for never letting go of me even though sometimes I slipped away.........MOST OF ALL for being my Lord and Savior!
I know we all have blessings if we just look around and thank God for them. Just let God in and he'll work in your life if you let him. It doesn't matter how rough the road is or how hard you have it, God will be there to help if you just trust in him.
Friends, I continue to ask for your prayers, and know that I am praying for you all.