Tue, Feb 28th - 9:38PM

Wild at heart

Hey, I read a little more of the book today. It is a great book. I wish I would have read it a year ago. I need to to ask for prayer. In the book he talks about how men can wound their boys. One of the ways is through divorce. I feel guilty enough already. Im sure as I get further into the book He will give some clues  how to handle this distance from my boys. God is faithful and I truly beleive he is going to protect my children.  A few months ago I was reasured by the Holy Spirit God was going to protect my children through this. still sometimes it hurts.

Alive and well in Christ

Mon, Feb 27th - 10:23PM

Wild at Heart

I started to read the book Wild at Heart by John Eldredge. One of the first points he makes is that men are hardwired to love an adventure and they get this from God. Man was created in the image of God.

He suggest that the fact God gave us freewill but did not leave us alone in this world we made a mess of. God loves to intervene to help us. The children of Israel at the red see then God showed up to intervene. Jesus killed by a mob burried then God show up to come to the rescue. God loves to be the calvary.

I will read on and give more insight to this book so far it has captured my curiosity.

What do you think?

Sun, Feb 19th - 8:47PM

My version of footprints

The other night while I was in prayer God gave me a vision of his help for me in this life.

I see myself fighting through the thickest rain forrest jungle  in the world. giant trees, plant life with leaves big enough to block out the sun light. Bugs flying around my face the hot humid air dripping like rain my body. Spiders the size of dinner plates hanging from the trees from thick matted webs. Me with my machete in hand hacking my way through to a place of peace I believe has been given to me joy is there to be injoyed by me and others I love are there to. Cutts on my face and arms that stilng with every drop of sweat. I can not go on I find myself faling to the ground at once the jungle incects go to work trying to claim the newest victim of the forrest. (This is the picture of my life that I have been living in the past)

All of a sudden I feel calm caring hands pick me up. there is somthinng strange about these hands although they are caring soft hands they are big strong ultrapowerful hands. They belong to a large strong being that picks me up in his arms and speed off through this inhospitable jungle as nimble and as easy as possible. This being know this jungle it is his. some how I know he made it. I suddenly relax and now I know that this is the way I shiould have been travelling thru this jungle I call life.

The first part of this vision was how I felt the last ten years of my Christian life I never realized this but that is how it was. Now after God using this divorce to get thru to me I have help the help that was there all the time

Fri, Feb 17th - 9:15PM

Full Cricle

On my  last posting there was a comment from Ross and it said he has seen me come full circle. Meaning he has herd mad at God, confused at what God was doing in my life. well all I can say is that statement touched a cord deep within me. I dwelt on that one little statement for a day or so. the same passage kept coming to my mind.

20 And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.
21 And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son.
22 But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet:
23 And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry:
24 For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.

I know this passage if used to show salvation but it also speeks to me who was far off. God's love is so reaching ('he had compassion and ran) and forgiving that I we can now be merry.

Words can not express the joy and love I feel from my heavenly father. I can not wait to see him in glory with all you saints.

Sat, Feb 4th - 6:21PM

What to do

    ²⁰ He took the Testimony and placed it in the ark, attached the poles to the ark and put the atonement cover over it. ²¹ Then he brought the ark into the tabernacle and hung the shielding curtain and shielded the ark of the Testimony, as the LORD commanded him.

    ²² Moses placed the table in the Tent of Meeting on the north side of the tabernacle outside the curtain ²³ and set out the bread on it before the LORD, as the LORD commanded him.

    ²⁴ He placed the lampstand in the Tent of Meeting opposite the table on the south side of the tabernacle ²⁵ and set up the lamps before the LORD, as the LORD commanded him.

    ²⁶ Moses placed the gold altar in the Tent of Meeting in front of the curtain ²⁷ and burned fragrant incense on it, as the LORD commanded him. ²⁸ Then he put up the curtain at the entrance to the tabernacle.

    ²⁹ He set the altar of burnt offering near the entrance to the tabernacle, the Tent of Meeting, and offered on it burnt offerings and grain offerings, as the LORD commanded him.

    ³⁰ He placed the basin between the Tent of Meeting and the altar and put water in it for washing, ³¹ and Moses and Aaron and his sons used it to wash their hands and feet. ³² They washed whenever they entered the Tent of Meeting or approached the altar, as the LORD commanded Moses.

    ³³ Then Moses set up the courtyard around the tabernacle and altar and put up the curtain at the entrance to the courtyard. And so Moses finished the work.

The Glory of the LORD

    ³⁴ Then the cloud covered the Tent of Meeting, and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle. ³⁵ Moses could not enter the Tent of Meeting because the cloud had settled upon it, and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle.

As you read this did you see the pattern (I helped with the higlights) In verses 17-30 the people did "as the Lord commaned"

Then and only them in verse 34 the glory of the Lord showed up.

I see a clear equation for haveing God's glory showing up in my life or in yours. All we need to do is put yourself in the place of the Isrealites. All we need to do is DO AS THE LORD COMMANDS.

God will not and can not push hiself into a place that is not properly prepared for him. We need to be obedient.

Abraham did not know where he was going God told him I will show you.

Abraham did not recieve the lamb to sacrifice until he raised the knife to kill his son.

What is God asking us to do on a minute by minute basis. We need to be obediant every second of our life and them we can see Gods glory and others will be drawn to him thru us

Wed, Feb 1st - 8:53PM

I think most of you know my story if not you can go back and read my blog. I have struggled with how can God not come thru for me in my time of trial. I have repented and have truly made a change of heart and direction of my life. Thru this I have heard all of the platitudes and all of the canned statments  of fellow Christians that mean well. I  thought they  all sounded good but they were not working.

Today in my prayer and devotion time God gave me the answer. The answer is so easy and simple. This one word calmed my soul and gave me peace that has been avoiding me for nonths.

That word is FAITHThe question for me is do I trust God for everything. I trust him for my salvation but do I trust him to come thru in his time and way.

The answer is Yes I will trust him to take care of this his way and in his time. And not just this divorce but every aspect of my life.