Tue, Feb 28th - 9:08PM
On Hold but Not Impossible 2/23/2012
Well yesterday was a day of excitement and disappointment.. As it seems everyday I ran to do my errands and pick up the mail. I received a letter from the Dorrance Publishing Co. stating they liked my manuscript and wanted to publish it. Sounds good right until I read the cost for publication $5000. Seem high? It did to me too so I checked into it with all they do for you It right-on. I did not know how much was to be done just to get a manuscript published and on a bookshelf. There is editing, page design, cover design,copyright. There book formats, which I did not know because of today's technology. You have traditional print, eBook which is for the Kindle, Nook, Sony Reader, Androidphones, the iPhone, the iPod Touch as well as Personal computers. My goodness what a world we live in. And of course you have promotion of the book. You have on-line bookstores, there's approximately three hundred media outlets such as local and national newspapers. magazines, radio and television stations and of course good old bookstores. There is publicity release to online news media , Googles New; Yahoo News. along with online blogs. The list just goes on and on. I never thought so much goes into this one book I wrote. When my poems got published it was cut and dry. They gave me the name of the book it was going to be feature in (Though The Looking Glass). That was it. I could buy copies if I wanted them. The day of excitement turned to disappointment when I find out the cost. There is no way that I can come up with that much money or do payments right now. As I laid there feeling sorry for myself I realized that I was letting Satan steal my joy. If the Holy Spirit was the one who truly told me to write this book then it will come to pass. I am thankful that the Holy Spirit is mine personnel spell check. Check yourself Doreen you're heading for the road of wrong thoughts. I remembered that "ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE THROUGH CHRIST JESUS'. Thank You Jesus that I have the Holy Spirit living in me. (The Days of a Lifetime)
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Tue, Feb 28th - 9:06PM
NEW SEASON 2/22/2012
Well last Saturday my oldest with his family moved out. I've come to realize that since I was twenty-four there been only one year of no children. This is my 2nd night of no one being at the house at night. I'm doing ok, but the silent can get boring. I'm trying not to fall into that trap of napping. The good news is my husband after fifteen years of working 3:30pm to 12am/1-2am with ot is going to days starting next week. That should be a whole new can of worms for me to blog about. There is the slice fear that with the grandchildren not seeing me everyday they may forget nana. The two oldest has been with us from age 10 months and three. Now they're eight and almost eleven. I just keep it in mind that when you live in the same town your never to far away. I know a lot of people would say what's the problem that's how it's suppose to be, empty the nest. I would say so true, but my children and I have gone through so much together. They're what kept me going when I just wanted to call life done. Don't get me wrong I truly want them on their own, but just close to do things together sometime. I'm missing out on so much with the grandchildren that live in California. Three months from now I'll be enjoying life anew. God listen to prayer. How many times did I say Lord help them get started with their new life. a life of their own. Thank You Lord that I'm never alone for you are always with me. For this I am Thankful. (The Days of a Lifetime)
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Tue, Feb 28th - 9:04PM
Stepping out in Faith 2/3/2012
I finally did it. I took a step of faith on getting my book published. The Holy Spirit spoke to me one night in prayer about writing a book on the lessons I've learn from notes from sermons. I have been working on it for 3 years now. Not a very big book at all. I'm in the cleaning up or editting as some may say. I just contacted a publisher who is going to work with me. First thing is to see if they think it's worth the public to read. If not then all I can do is applied what I have written and believe into my own life. Some people may think that moving to Tulsa was a mistake, but Jesus had plans for me. Plans to teach me things about him I never knew before. To take the blinders off and truly see with my heart and not with just my eyes. To open my ears and learn his truth, his true meaning of what his plan for life in us is. I Thank You Father God for new journeys, for open doors and right hearts that cross my path everyday. (The Days of a Lifetime)
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Tue, Feb 28th - 9:00PM
Hop, Skip and a Jump 2/1/2012
Have you ever had one of those moments when something from nowhere hits your heart and you are filled with a overwhelming excitement. How do you explain the feeling that comes from a simple thought. The level of joy is like one of those amusement park games. The one were you use the hammer to send the ball up to the top to ring the bell. I has listening to some songs and watching some videos done by my God Son and I became sad for a moment thinking of how such a young loving man he was and to lose his life at 22. But as I started to sing along with him this joy started building higher and higher. Lord your words are so true you do give beauty for ashes and joy for sorrow. What started off as sad turned to happiness that made me just want to hop, skip and jump like a little kid.(The Days of a Lifetime)
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:56PM
Wow 1/27/2012
Wow! Things change so fast. Life is a roller coaster ride, kind of fun and exciting. But the down hill motion can make you sick. The Lord has been wonderful as always. I got my social security disability, finally after 3 years of fighting. Wow the bills that pile up when you go down from two incomes to one. I had this big plan of paying this bill and that bill, but after awhile you watch the money just going lower and lower. Before you know it half the things you planed on useing it for can't be done. I feel blessed to just be able to get some of the bills out of the way. I told myself I would not start stressing or going through the I should have done this instead of that syndrome. I am so good at doing that. I have a guilt complex about not helping and giving more tor my love ones. All I can do is ask God to direct me in spending the money I am blessed with. Thank you Jesus. May I always be a good steward of things you give me.(The Days of a Lifetime)
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:52PM
New Year New Beginnings 1/8/2012
Well Hello everyone! It's been a while since I blog last. We've had a rough ending to the year 2011 and a rough beginning for 2012. As those of you who been keeping up on my son,he is still fighting to get his daughter back. It will take a lot and there is no guarantees. But we are relaying on God to see us through. My daughter who was due with our 11th grand baby on Jan 31st delivered a health baby boy Jan 3rd,. Brandon Leigh came into this world at 4lbs 11oz and 16ins long. He is #7 for the boys. The boys are taking over score 7 to 5. One of our little princesses Airabella became sick and was sent to the hospital. She stayed 24 hrs for dehydration. It almost killed my son because she is the one out of state taken by her mother and step father. Then last Sunday little princess Nyomi has so sick we took her to the hospital. They said possible strip throat an send her home with antibodies. Of course she would not take any of it and got worse so Friday they admitted her to St Francis Children Hospital. They IV her and did a bunch of blood test. They thought she had a rare disease called Kawaski Disease. Thank God it wasn't that just strip and a small amount of e -coil- i. She was one sick baby, but now she's home. I made a promise that not just at Thanksgiving but every day I would find a reason to be Thankful. Well for this period of time I Thank you Father God for answer prayers. Thank you for the stripes that Jesus took for our illness that we are healed. (The Days of a Lifetime)
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:32PM
Satan comes to steal,kill and destroy 12/20/2011
Is it Christmas Time? If I went by the world standard I would say no. Seems like the month is full of sorrow instead of joy. On the most part I have to say I take full blame on this trouble that came knocking at our door. As you know my middle son has moved his ready-made family here in Tulsa from Phoenix. Let me back this up a little. Because I've always had a big heart for the hurting and the down and out, this was cause my children to be the same. Don't get me wrong having a caring, loving heart is a good thing, but if you don't watch out it can make you stupid. I have taken over 15 kids and 2 adults into my household. Kids with parents who had drugs and drinking problems. Kids that just needed a place to crash because their parents were angry and kicked them out for a weeks or so. This is were my ex daughter in law came into play. She was a young mother at 15. Her mother came to me, didn't ask ,but said if you don't take her in she's going out of state to a place for trouble teens. I didn't see her as trouble but just needing someone who truly cared. Hint 3 years later my oldest and her were married. Now between them she has 2 while they were separated, 2 together. my grandson the he raised. That's a total of 5. Some how people and animals seem to find my door steps. We won't go into how many dogs and 3 week old pups have waged their tails when I've open my door. I've had people come to me saying God told me to bring this pup to you. Yeah right, but you never know. Therefore when my son spoke to me about this lady with a 4 year old that was being abused along with her; I knew this was the opening of his heart. To do whatever it took to defend them. He's always been the white knight. She told him stories that he believed and saw this man hit the little boy in the mouth. Needless to say she ask him to take custody of the 4 year old, because the doctors told her she only had 10 years to live with a brain tumor and did not want her husband (who is not the dad) to raise him. WELCOME TO MY OPEN HEART! The horror stories she told of her childhood, her family as murders. The abuse of rape from a uncle, a aunt that hit her in the head causing esperlsy at age 6. Anyone would feel sorry for this poor woman. During her separation she got pregnant. Told my son it was his and he took on the responsibility. With medication she was loving and caring person or was it a act to get away and closer to her family. It's like a person who has spend most of their life in prison, when they finally get out they can't handle everyday life. They find some way to go back to prison the place where they lived most of their life. No matter how bad and horrible it was. That's d in law 2. She played her husband, she played my son. When my son told d-2 that they would go to MI to visit her family the baby was his 98%. After moving here we notice the change in her. Hiding calls to someone in MI. Making up stories that her soon to be ex was calling and theating her. On November 17 Airabella Skye arrived just in time for the holidays. When my son told her that they would not go to MI until after her divorce and that the papers for legal adoption for Chris was done then they could go. We later found out that her ex moved to MI and was back in the picture, wanting his daughter. Out of the blue she in the room packing up all her things. The next day things seem to be settle, but once again she walks back into the room packing again. Come to find out she had made plans with her ex-husband to pick her up with the children. The plan was to have him pick her up where my son would not have time to do anything to stop them. We fought hard. He left with the baby until the paternity test could be done this week. The state of Oklahoma always gives custody to the mother. I would agree 99% that the mother is better to raise a child, but not in her case. Due to her seizures she can sleep up to 24 hours. Leaving the 4 year old to go without eating. Putting a bottle in a new born mouth laying down and walking out of the room. (#1 killer in children under 1 year). Abusive and not wanting the 4 year old. These are just a few of the things my son was fighting and trying to work from 5pm to 5 am. Coming home and caring for Airabella until she got up around 11 or so. A lot of time I would take her just so he could get some sleep. We thought we had it. D2 called DHS on us. They agreed the baby was not to go with her until the investigation was completed. At noon today Phil was to have the testing done, but at 4:15pm last night the police arrived with a court order. The judge wanted all parties in the court room by 4:30. Of course, the police can do 90mph to get there on time. The wrong room # was given so Phil was not able to see the judge. The judge went home handed the baby to the mother and they have left the state. My son is hurting and that makes me hurt. We never got to getting a Christmas tree. The first time in 57 years that I did not have a tree. We did get the Christmas light up on the house. So from the outside it looks cheerful, but in the inside it's sorrowful. Money is short not much for the kids this year. My new grandson not here to enjoy it and my beautiful little princess #5 will not be here either. I wonder if it the same for others acting all cheerful outside but hurting inside. I know this battle is not over for us. My son will raise his daughter. Give her the life she deserve. No abuse! So Satan was come to Steel, Kill and Destroy this season, but Jesus has won the fight 2000 years ago. He's here with us as we lean on him. We'll stand and be still and watch him turn this into a day of rejoicing. And for that I Thank You Lord. (The Days of a Lifetime)
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:17PM
Christmas fun 12/15/2011
Christmas is coming soon. Am I ready yet? No, not even close. Every year I tell myself I'm going to start in October and that month comes and goes. I love this season. People being truly what God intended us all to be. Caring, loving and showing true good will. If we could just keep that loving spirit that is deep down in each one of us showing year round we all being doing well. I haven't gotten the Christmas tree, or bought the Christmas dinner, but I did spent time with each of my grand daughters trying to take cam pictures on my computer. What a wonderful and fun time we had. Thank You Lord for giving me time to spend with the ones I love. For this I'm Thankful. (The Days of a Lifetime)
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:15PM
Each Breath is a Moment in Time 12/14/2011
ow! Blogging early today. I'm weighting my option to go to the dollar show or not. If I go I'm out of the house away from the kids, but I have to get up at midnight to pick up Hubby. Or I can try to lock myself in my room and pick him up at 7:30. One way or another I know I need a vacation. My three grandkids that have lived with me all their lives seem to be having problems with the new cousin. He's not the only children now and this is taking a tole on him. The 8 years who was been doing good in school seems to be taking his anger for his cousin on the kids a school. The 2 year old is in the mine, mine mode. After A full day of breaking the 5 and 2 year old a part, I need to walk away take a breath. Each breath is a moment in time. Within second a new experience will take place. And for each one I receive I am Thankful Lord. (The Days of a Lifetime)
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:13PM
Soft Touch 12/2011
oday was good. No seizures to deal with in the early morning. That was a blessing by itself. The kids did pretty good, only a few pushes and hitting. I try to not get involved with the other couples living in my house. And I try to drop hints here and there in a peaceful way when i think they're doing wrong.. I find that I'm quick to anger, fast to forgive. If I could just learn to be more gentle in my approach in being helpful. I find every little thing seem to get under my skin lately. I can think someone is doing wrong and that's OK. But have someone tell me my kids are doing wrong and I'm down their throats in a heartbeat. What is it with us Leo's? I know God will keep me right where I am until I learn to just let it go and go with the flow. I think it comes down to just wanting the best for my kids. I suffer from I'm Your Mom Syndrome. I see one child(see what I mean) I see one man 6'3 and another 6'4.but in my mind eye I still see little boys. What medicine can I take for this. I think I can boss them around and they"re to listen or else. What the or else can be when I'm 5'4 I don't know. It's like the dad who knows no guy is good enough for his princess. I find good in both my daughters in-laws, but I also see lots of room for improvement. I want them to be 3/4 like me and 1/4 themselves. Isn't that sad way of thinking. God just put me in check on that one. He created each one of us to be different, not clones. Find the good in all and never think twice on the bad. At the end of the day no matter what I think they all seem to truely be content and happy with the ones they have. And for that I am Thankful Lord. The Days of a Lifetime
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:10PM
Peace tonight 12/12/2011
Wow a night without problems. Got to sing in the shower. The big kids(age 21 & up) are playing with one of the small kids Christmas toy. They never really grow up. It's a early night for me, going to bed before 11 pm. I have to be up for my job (babysitting) at 5:30. Hopefully that will be the time I get up. God just knows who to send my way who needs help. I think with keep up on the time for d#2 meds within the week she'll be right as new. I prayed to God to help me be a blessing to those in need, just never thought it would be in my own home. It a small test that I'm willing to do. JUSTSOM DIGNITY MINISTRIES might be closer than I know.
The Days of a Lifetime
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:08PM
Why just tell me why 11/12/2011
After blogging early this morning and I mean early 2-3am, I just got into bed when my son called me out of the beginning of sleep. Daughter in-law 2 was in a grand maul. she had another around noon today. Nowhere's my question. Why when you go to the hospital for seizures, do the doctor orders a cat scan which the die will cause you to have repeated seizures? Can anyone explain this to me? Why not a MRI? Well I will see how the day goes. Letting my son get some needed sleep. Kids are with Daniel (son) & d in-law 2. I got sweet pea Airabella.
The Days of a Lifetime
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:06PM
Adjustment Time 11/12/2011
Well It's 2:33am on the 11th. I Woke up at 5:45am to watch the kids while Daniel[son] drove d in law 1 to work. I made the mistake of going back to bed. I didn't get up until 11am. I wanted to get so much done and like every weekend half the things got pass by. Thursday night d in law 2 had a grand maul seizure. This time she took herself out back, fell and hit her head. Now she has a egg on her forehead. When we got back from running errands today I found that Cheyanne had fell and hurt her knee cap. Everyone thought she had broke it, but its just a bad deep bruise. Before Daniel (son) could call to let us know what was going on at the hospital with her, d in-law 2 was having back to back petty maul seizures. We had Cheyanne at OSU Regional Hospital and D in-law 2 at OU Hillcrest Hospital. The good news is Chey is fine and they did a cat scan on d 2. Daughter in law 2 has found to be clear of the brain tumor. Glory to God! The Doctor up'd her meds back to where she has before Airabella. Speaking of Airabella she is her mother's Guarding Angel. If it was not for her crying I would not had check and found her mother in full blown seizure mode. She let me know that mom was sick. Not just once, but on all 5 Grands. I tell you God send that little one to help her mom. And for that Lord I am Thankful.
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:04PM
Ups and Downs 9/12/2011
Today I finally got some sleep. Future daughter in-law had a petty-maul seizure so it wasn't to bad. Was up until 6am with Airabella, then I was up at 9am to run my other daughter in law a few places. When I got home at noon I slept until 2pm. Why is it the day seems to start ok then just when you think everything is fine, whack you're hit with a 2x4 across the head. We'll just use d in-law 1 and d in-law 2(with seizures). D in-law 1 and I got into a full blown fight over a pile of trash on the kitchen floor she had left. All I wanted to do was to relax and try to get rid of this everlasting headache while they were at my grand daughter school concert. But no I blame my mom Miss Spic and Span. Now my headache is ten times worst. By tomorrow we'll be right as rain. On a happy note today is my middle sons Birthday 32. Wow the years keep moving forward. He's doing great on his new job. Trying hard to get everything in order for a new life with a new baby, son and wife. I'm very proud of all my children on what they have done for their families. Their dad and I was not always the best examples, but some how with God blessings each one is on the right path to having a wonderful life and for that I give God all that praise and honor.
The Days of a Lifetime
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:02PM
Wow Sunshine on a Rainy Day 7/12/2011
Alright as I blog yesterday the 6th you were told that I had only 1 hour of sleep since the 5th. Well chalk that up for today 0. My future daughter in-law had yet another Grand Mal seizure at 1am today. So much for sleep. Didn't get out of the hospital until 5am. Had to watch the 2 babies(8 months and 3 weeks) plus the 2 year old and the 4 1/2. Talk about fun. They were good on the most parts if you don't count the 2 year old biting the 4 year old on the back, or the 8 month old stashing the 3 week old bottle. I can't even count how many diapers I changed or bottles I made. Why aren't I weighting the 120 like in the good old days? Tomorrow I get the joy of holding down the 2 year old and the 8 month as they get 3 booster shots each. As my daily journey begins each day I may complain, get angry and even shoot fire from my mouth. But what starts as a bad day always end on a good note. Each one of my grand children spreads a little sunshine. A big smile or laugh., or learning a new song with the lyrics being wrong. The 2 year old goes around singing "Who put the dog down? Ruff Ruff." It's these small reason I am Thankful Lord for family.
The Days of a Lifetime
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Tue, Feb 28th - 8:00PM
Santa on his way 12/06/2011
Well its been a long day. Went to sleep around 4:30 up at 5:30. I must be a fool cause now its after 1am and I have to be up at 5am to watch the grandkids. Amenda my future daughter in-law had a seizure last night so off to the hospital by EMT. Made her rest part of the day. God always protects and for that alone I am thankful. Christoper Joseph my almost 5 year old grandson got a Santa video letter today via my email. The look on his face was priceless. Santa knew his name and had a picture of him, his Uncle D and new baby sister Airabella. He done nothing since, but talk about Santa letter. I hope that everyone has found something or somethings to be thankful for today. God Bless.
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Tue, Feb 28th - 7:58PM
Life this week 03/12/2011
Today is my first day back on the computer. Had a malfunction with the mouse. What a week! I got some great news, after almost 3 years of applying for social security disability I was approved. I don't think anyone can imagine what it's like to wake up and go to bed in pain, just to have someone tell you that you're not hurting enough to be consider disable. It's not the label of being disable. It's the idea of someone telling you you don't hurt enough cause test show you have a mild case of so and so. No doctor or Judge, or committee can tell me what I feel and what I can do with this body They make you feel lazy, crazy and that you only care about yourself not your family. Nothing changes in the world you live in. Bills keep coming in and in some cases like my own you lose vehicles, your home and your dignity. Well I doubted myself. Was I being selfish for not working putting extra stress on my love ones. There was a period of time that I couldn't except my house not being as clean as I once was able to keep it. I felt some family member didn't believe in me or didn't take my disabilities in to count. When the Judge said approved it was a moment to shine, a moment of I told you so. Thank God he was with me all the way.
The Days of A Lifetime
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Tue, Feb 28th - 7:55PM
Day after Thanksgivings
Everyone goes back to their regular life. With my family it is sleeping in late, raiding the fridge and messing up the house. We seem to forget all the hours of cleaning, cooking and making sure all the guest feel welcome. Most of us will forget to Thank God for a new day. We'll watch tv, hit the stores if we have the money. Come Monday it will all be forgotten and life will just go on.
All in the Days of a Lifetime
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