Mon, Oct 31st - 4:56PM
God working
while in prayer the other night the thought came to me (from the Holy Spirit) that me growing closer to Jesus if more important to God than my marriage. He wants my marriage to survive but he want me to draw closer to Jesus that is the out come he wants to see. I know that I am so bull headed that this was the only way he could get thru to me. He tried many times and many ways to call me back but I would not listen. That is why I am where I am at in my life. Praise be to God for rescuing me from myself. Continue to pray for my wife and I also for my wee little ones. Hannah(7) Jesse(5) Josiah(3) Hadassah(20mo)
Thank you God is good
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Sun, Oct 30th - 10:35PM
worship
today I went to church and for the first time in a long time my soul felt a little fire it burned for Christ. He is slowly drawing me close. I need to continue the quest for healing. Thanks for praying for me.
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Fri, Oct 28th - 10:01PM
Sorry
Sorry, this blog was going to be a devotional blog but it turned into me complaining about my marriage going into the crapper. Well I feel like it is about to turn around. I feel the need to get busy building my relationship with Christ back up. I have had a long enough pitty party. I need to face the fact my wife does not love me any more. Today was to be our tenth wedding anniversery so this will be my last day to feel sorry for myself. After today it is my children and God. But not in that order.
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Mon, Oct 24th - 10:19PM
peace returning
The peace that passes all understanding is starting to return. I have been able to let God's love warm my heart. I guess my "blue period" is over. I started to read my bible and feel good about God and what he will do in my life. I will not be washed away I will finnish the race.
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Wed, Oct 19th - 8:55AM
Scared
That line of thinking does scare me. I feel I am going the wrong way. I have given up on everything. I love my wife (she could care less for me) and children. I do not understand how God can say he loves me and he loves my children and he hates divorce but he is going to use somthing he hates to make me a better person. I wish I had the faith that Abaham had and could just put my children on the altar of divorce for sacrifice and know God would still come thru on his promise.
I realy do believe God could have and would have kept his promise to Abraham. The difference in my situation is there is another person in the equation who has her own freewill and Thinks she is so hurt that she gave up. Even though she told me you are doing great "making great improvments."
So I need to continue to improve my relationship with God and let her do what she needs to do and maybe God will fix the mess. If not my children loose my marriage is dead.
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Sun, Oct 16th - 5:07PM
Church today
Today was the first time I have went to church in two months. I went to a new church with a friend. I found myself saying yeh right to just about everything the pastor said. He was preaching on how much God wants to give to us. How much he is a loving giving God all I could ask is what about my marriage. What difference did he make in my marriage. This line of thinking scares me. What should I do.
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Wed, Oct 5th - 7:10PM
know this
I would like you all to know I still love my wife and want to reconcile with her. I do believe that is what God wants. I still want the best for her.
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Wed, Oct 5th - 6:29PM
pray
hey, im here. I would like to say HELP. Some days I dont think I can take it anymore. The thought of what is going on wilth my children is making me depressed. Daycare, grandparents, our pastor and who know where else they are getting passed of to. Some days with my wife some with me and I am sure my children's idea of security is gone. I hope they can learn to trust God. And to know he will always be there even though they dad and mother is in and out of there life. This is a quick post I am at work sorry for mis-spelled words.
Tim
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