Sat, Dec 1st - 10:32PM

End of another year

God is good all the time! All the time, God is good!!

I cannot believe we are nearing the end of another year. We have been back in Montana for almost 5 years. I could never have forseen the changes that would take place when we moved back here. I spent so much time looking for the next chapter in my life, looking ahead to what was in store. Waiting for things to get better rather than looking at what was happening now. We can be so foolish :)

It is when we are seeing the now that we see what God does for us. It is the the moment we are living that is the most beautiful. When I came back here my boys were just turning 13, boys still. Children needing the guidance of a mother. Now, as I look to 2008, those children are turning 18. Adults, whew, a blink and my boys are men. I feel pretty certain that it takes all parents like that. People have told me for years what good boys I have. I would say with a shrug, "They could be worse." Now looking at the young people around me I know that they were right. But for the Grace of God!

I had trouble with one of the boys last year, bad choices in friends, bad choices in school, bad choices at home. I yelled, ranted and raved. He turned a deaf ear and plunged on with the destruction of his young life. At some point he made a choice. I didn't make it for him. While he is not a stellar student, he has better friends this year. He is looking to his future and doing great. I cannot take credit for the change, all I did was make him mad :) God's hands were working the clay. Thank you God for being the earthly father they don't have. I hold the fact that He has them in his hands and He will continue His work in them.

As for the rest, we have a new priest and thats exciting. As I said in my last post, we have our home. We have lots of ideas that we are praying about and we keep praying that God will point our feet in the direction that He would have us go. That's probably the hardest part for me, waiting on God. I want to rush ahead and do! Being completely surrendered to God's plan is so difficult for me, I want to be in charge and know what is coming and planning for all eventuality. It has been a dream for many years to own my own christian bookstore. I keep waiting for God to say ok. It has not happened yet. Maybe it is not for me, maybe he has something else. So I try to wait, to be still and just wait but I am so impatient! I read a book a couple of years ago called "In a Twinkling" probably one of the first fiction books written about the rapture. The words that captured my attention were "Tomorrow?, Perhaps." I have kept that in my heart to apply to so many things. Christian bookstore, Tomorrow? Perhaps. Different job tomorrow? Perhaps. God are you going to tell me where you want me to go? "Perhaps tomorrow!" Yea God!!

So I will live in today and wait for God to tell me tomorrow, perhaps. ;)

Sat, Sep 8th - 9:47PM

The Writer formally known as godsservant :)

Wow, the summer is gone. I dont think I even saw it :)

The house is finally done, its been a long haul. Actually, its not done but we can live in it! There are always things to do and we have molding and stone work and painting, and curtains and... and... and... you know how it is. But Praise God! Its mine. I have not been in church in months, I miss my church family. I picked up another job when the house was finished to put some aside for a deck and garage. It meant working some sundays. That in itself if a lie, I could have said no sundays. The fact is, the longer I am away from the church the easier it is to continue missing service. Its not like I need church, I mean hey life is good right now. 2 jobs, extra cash in my pocket, the house, the boys are working, things are pretty much on easy street right now. Why shake things up? If I am not in church and my life is good, why draw attention to myself? It always seems that when I am following the path and am living the way I feel called to live, the whole world is out to get me! Why would I want that attention again?

Ok, enough sarcasm! : D  I am tired, whew, like you would not believe. I am lacking in patience, I am crabby, short tempered and negative about those around me. I need to be back in church and back into a good grounding bible study. But... God is good. Thru all my ugly stages, God loves me no matter what. God is good. He continues to bless us and gives more than I can comprehend. I am a witch, and God says "would you like some more?"  Oh and along those lines, a few years ago I read the Prayer of Jabez. I started praying the prayer in the back. Not for anything specific, God could bless me with what he thought best. Oh boy did he bless me!!! I now know what the author was saying about asking God to stop the blessings :) Please God dont stop, but let me catch my breath! God is good, did I mention that?

God bless the body!

Babs