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    edwina s poem
          as i wait out the day
           to end,
           and hold onto the fading light of dusk,
           i am reminded
          of my life ,
          that is in
          twilight of the years,
           and yearning for the son to appear..

    Wed, May 31st - 6:06AM



    the tops of the trees sway back and forth

     the sun begins to shine

     and moves the shadows from the branches 

     all along the ground

     the wind is warm and gently blowing

     the ground is moist with dew

     and all the time  the flowers grow

    up towards the sky so blue.

    and as we walk along the path,

    and i reach down to pet your neck

    that is damp with running breath

    your eyes look up at me  to ask

     do we have to go back  just yet?

     cant we stay  alittle longer

    while while i run and chase the butterflys

     that come up to me and fli taway.

     can we alittle longer stay?

     '' fetch! ''

    i yell, as i throw a stick,

     you run as if there was  a race

    , and with your tongue lolling out you splash

     into the brackish lake

    and grab  the stick that i had thrown

    and bring it back to me-

      show off!

    and i can tell you are laughing  at my pace,

     ''why i only have 2 legs - not four'',

     thats why you are ahead of me once more.

     now its time to head on back

    to the place we dread so much

     not knowing what we will find

     when the work is over and then  he'll come

     where we sit crouching on the bed

     wondering how it ever got this bad.

    please dog

    go outside and hide

     and i will be ok.

    just dont come out till again he leaves

    then ill know you are safe that way.

     you are the only one who cares for me

     and  shows me real true love

     what would i do if  you were gone?

     id dry up and die like those leaves

     we walked thru this morning ,

     

    which once was so very pretty

    but now they  are trampled on.

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     



    Comment (1)

    Sun, May 28th - 8:02AM



    ITS LIKE THE SLEET ON A ICEY  DARK NIGHT

    THAT BEATS  SO HARD ON MY THIN  COAT,

     DISPARE AND ANGER AND SADDNESS FLOWS

    THRU MY BLOOD AND  AND I AM SO COLD.

     WITH NOTHING BUT FEAR TO KEEP ME ALIVE,

     NOTHING BUT PAIN UPON PAIN.

     CHOKING BACK TEARS AND BILE THAT

    COMES UP IN MY THROAT BECAUSE

     I AM  SICK AND  SO READY TO DIE.

    THE NIGHT LASTS FOREVER AND THE PELTING NEVER ENDS,

    SHOVING  ME  TO MY KNEES,

    I HEAR  ME WHIMPERING AND SHIVERING

     UNDER ICE LADEN TREES,

    THAT LOOK READY TO LIGHTEN THEIR LOAD .

    ITS LIKE THE SLEET ON A ICEY DARK NIGHT,

     FOREVER COMING 

     BLOODYING ME.



    Comment (1)

    Sun, May 21st - 7:44AM



    i  am beyond feeling  sad,

     i am so tired that  i cry-

    how can i get away? 

     there is no light in  this tunnel

    there is no happy day.

     

    will someone truly be my friend

    are you really there?

    or is that just a hopeless wish

    and this is a heartache i am

     meant to bear...?

    please say it isnt.

     i just cant stand

     another empty day,

     where no phone will ring

     or neighbor calls

     to wish my cares away.

    will you please try and say ,

    a little prayer for me?

     that when darkness comes

    i wont be alone

     and angels will watch over me?

    and protect me

    from

     

     

     



    Comment (3)

    Fri, May 19th - 5:35AM



    THE MIRROR DOESNT LIE I SAY

     TO MYSELF,

     AS I LOOK AT  MY FACE,

    CLOSE MY EYES, AND OPEN THEM AGAIN,

     HOPING THAT PERHAPS ITS THE SHADING OF THE FLOWERS IN THE VASE

     HES BROUGHT TO ME

     AGAIN ,

     THIRD TIME THIS MONTH.

    PUTTING  THE DARK SPLOCHES ON   MY  SKIN AND  THEN,

    BLOOD SHOT EYES LOOK BACK AT ME AGAIN.

     HOW MUCH LONGER CAN I PRETEND

     THATS ITS OK?

     IT WAS MY FAULT.

     I MADE YOU MAD.

     I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN,

    NOT TO SAY THAT  AND YET HOPING

     THAT WE COULD HAVE TALKED IT OVER -

     INSTEAD OF THIS

     AGAIN TO WAKE UP-

     WITH FLOWERS IN A VASE,

    BY THE BED

     WHERE I CRAWLED TO AFTER HE PASSED OUT.



    Comment (1)

    Thu, May 11th - 8:47AM



    whats the point of coming back

     he doesnt really care,

      just comes in and does a look

    he's a doctor and  - has to be there..

    he asks- if'' its hurting

     how have your meals been?......

     how can he be so unfeeling?

    i need help  in here.!

     he gives to so many others, 

    but has  nothing to sooth my  pain?

     isnt there something that he can do ,

    to show me that he still may care?

    perhaps a touch when asked for 

     when  i try  to move

     from chair to window ledge..

     but cant he even hold my arm

    as i try to stumble there??

    to see my grandchild maybe

    -perhaps a glimpse... or two..

    as she waits in the car with her mother..,

    not knowing  i what i am to  you.

     .now the holiday is fast approaching.

    his duty is almost done,

     he came to see his mother

     and now his time thru..

     back to the kids and wifey,

     they soon will take a trip.

     and forget about all the smells and crys

    where he saw his mother last... 



    Comment (2)

    Wed, May 10th - 6:37AM



    it ozzes out of me so sad and alful feeling

    that i can hardly stand to take a breath,

     the wrong thats done to someone who needs only comfort and love to cheer

     but where is it?

     why does it not  come this way to me?

     its not fair!! i cry to walls

    who have no ears to hear-

    me sobbing  when the lights are off

     and all have gone to sleep.

     where is the peace that comes to one who only seeks relief?

    '' the pain is too much this time,'' i scream,

    ''i cannot bear it more!!''

    then lights come on and they ask me'' why

     dont you sleep some  more''...?

    ... they dont care that im awake-

     in agony so deep.

     they dont mind that the bed is wet

    with my tears and choking grief.

    just as long as i dont disturb

     the  schedule they have to keep.



    Comment (0)

    Tue, May 9th - 5:22AM

    nursing home



    as i sit in this chair

     and look out over the growing grass

     that stains their hands when they try and pull out the weeds,

    and then they look over at my window and see me sitting there

      all alone with my cup of tea thats already grown too cold to drink,

     yet when will another come -? i think...

     so i just wait and watch for them 

     to come and take me home again,

     maybe someday they will remember me,

     and i wont be like a weed

     that needs to be pulled and tossed away,

     but im afraid that  this is the day

     they wont come.

     again...



    Comment (3)

    Tue, May 9th - 4:31AM



    too many broken promises.

     too many hurtful lies.

     when will it stop 

    when will it end

     when will the past go by?

     and trouble me no further

     for i am weak yet-   still,

     the heart that used to beat so fast

    when you would come so near

     is now not loud and pounding,

     it shows its hateful side

     of still being there again today

     and keeping me alive.



    Comment (0)

    Mon, May 8th - 7:05AM

    are you lonely anyone?



     ARE YOU LONELY ALSO

     OUT THERE AMONG THE ONES,

     WHO PAST YOU BY AND

     SPEAK WHILE THEY ARE

    NOT REALLY CARING WHY,

     YOU ARE SO NUMB AND EMPTY

    and no one seems to mind

    if you will live or  turn to dust

     or continue to stand there..

    .waiting.

     for someone to care...

     



    Comment (4)

    Fri, May 5th - 6:45AM



    empty and hollow and quite

     in here ,

    with only the sound

     of breathing dogs and clocks that chime.

     and clouds outside that awaken the day

    with muffled pillow sounding noises

     that move the birds from  tree to tree

     looking for a place to hide

    from  the fat ,big ,wet drops

    that will glisten their wings ...



    Comment (3)

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    Name: edwina fast
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    Member Since: 2006-04-03
    Location: , Mississippi
    Denomination: ind baptist
    About Me: married 35 years, no kids, have 4 dogs and one cat. love soulwinning and prison ministry. gardening, crafts, painting.... reading.. meeting new people.:) and did i say , dogs?

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