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I know Its been a while…Here is the latest…..Our pastor called for a 21 day fast for our new church and for lost souls to be saved. I know some of you are saying, Your not supposed to tell anyone about fasting…It is between you and God… I believe it says to keep your heart pure….I do believe your not supposed to use it to draw attention to yourself but it is ok to discuss among people who understand it, Well, I have been a Christian for years….and this is the only time I have really tried to fast….Guess what? I failed at it miserably, But then I found out about the different kinds of fast….Like for example,

The normal fast: Going without food for a definite period which you ingest only liquids(water and or juice)

The absolute fast: allows no food or water at all (should be short in duration)

The partial Fast: Omits certain foods or limited eating

The rotational fast: eating or omitting certain families of foods for designated periods.

You may ask yourself , why all of the information. I did not know or was not educated enough to understand how to do this. So I thought I would go gung hoe. Leap in with all barrels rolling……..Well about the 7^th day I was hungry and could not do it….I gave in to the Devil……you have to pray hard during this,,,,,If you really want something, you have to pray. Oh, and by the way, YOU HAVE TO REPENT. I did not do this and because of it I failed…..I have to let God fix whatever he needs to in my life…So Tomorrow I begin again…

7 days…Thank you Pastor for your insight….I wish someone would have educated me on this a long time ago….This is serious stuff….Thank God He forgives……God bless you until next time……

Greetings in the name of the Lord,

Alright its time to get honest. Their was an underlying problem that I did not share with you about why I chose to step back and get the foundation strong. I got my pride hurt and felt offended about not being asked to do a certain task in the youth ministry. You may ask yourself this, how can I be calling myself a man of God when I let my selfish pride get in the way of Gods leadership. The simple answer is this. I was trying again to feed my human flesh. I talked with my wife about this problem and she told me that I was trying to be the center of attention. I recommend to anyone who is going to be in the ministry to always listen to your spouse. They know you better then anybody. I still feel strongly that this was a test from God and I truly failed it. I hope that you don’t fall into this trap. You see. I let the Devil have some insight and he ran with it. The purpose of this blog is to always be honest. I felt like I needed to clear the air because I am sure more test will be up-coming for me as I continue on this journey. I thank God that I have spiritual partners that I can go to with questions. Always remember, God forgives. I still feel like I need to get the foundation strong, but I just wanted to be completely honest.

God Bless……..

Hebrews 4:12

For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart.

Greetings in the name of our Lord,

Well it’s been a while, but I have been battling with God. I bet you can guess who won. Anyway, here is the deal. I was struggling with what he wanted me to do in the church. I was jumping in to fast. I needed to step back and get a good foundation underneath me and my family to prepare myself for the future. I was doing youth work and was struggling with the fact that I was out of touch with them. I believe that it was not my calling. I believe that God blocked this move for me because it was not the field he wanted me to serve in. My advice is to always serve where your comfortable so you will enjoy it. God understands that everyone is made for different services in His house. I believe that He is calling me into family ministry. Could this be a Pastor or maybe just a counselor. I do not know yet, because God is still working my placement out. You have to be honest with Him. I do not think He will put you into something unless He feels like it will work to His glory. So, here is the present game plan. I will keep reading my Bible daily and making our relationship personal. I will continue to listen to my Pastor and keep notes. I will continue to work in the church as a technical sound and light specialist. I will continue my degree in Divinity for Liberty University (on line). Above all else I will listen to Him more closely before any decisions are made for a leadership position in a church. Always understand that I still believe He is calling me into service, but I was trying to go to fast and not get the foundation I needed to be able to handle future endeavors in the church. I want to make sure when he does give me the go that I have everything needed.

God bless until next time…….

1 Timothy 3:17

That the man of God my be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work.

Today I got to church and it seemed like everybody had on volunteer buttons. I thought to myself, that’s odd , I know I’ve been volunteering since my wife and I have become members. I kind of felt left out. Then I realized that it was not about wearing the button, it was about receiving the blessings from the Lord. So many people in church get hung up on the recognition thing, and end up letting the Devil get inside their brain and before you know it they leave the church. I sat in the service and listened to our Pastor preach on getting your attitude right with God. You see its not about the recognition, its about your attitude. I believe the Devil was in the my thoughts saying stuff like, this church does not care about you, your just another person in a seat, you cant fit in here. Remember I am still struggling as I get closer to God and I know I cant give the Devil a way inside of my life. I could have very easily got offended by not getting my button and continued to let the Devil eat away at me during the service and not listened to what God was saying through our Pastor. God will always win out over the Devil. You see, as I keep growing in my walk to God and the ministry, He is giving my different ways of looking at things. I think God that He is changing my thoughts. Do you really think your going to be wearing any buttons when you stand before God. Don’t get caught up in the recognition thing and let it eat at you. God will bless you in your own time. I’m not saying to not take the recognition if it is bestowed on you, I’m saying that shouldn’t be your purpose for serving in Gods church. The only thing that matters and I want to here is …..

(Mat. 25:21) Well done thou good and faithful servant. thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord.