Mon, Jun 11th - 5:05AM

HELLO EVERYONE WHO HAPPENS TO LOOK THIS WAY TO READ THIS PROBABLY BOREING BLOG BY MYSELF.....HA HA!!

GOD IS GOOD TO ME!!!!

 OH YES, SOMETIMES I CAN BE PRETTY DEPRESSING IN POEMS BUT THATS HOW I GET  TO WRITE MY FEELINGS ABOUT WHATEVER IS HAPPENING AND IT HELPS SOMETIMES...

 I EXPECT I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE.

 LATELY I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GET OVER A ALFUL FIBROMYALGIA FLAIR -UP FROM DOING WAYYY TOO MUCH.-

. GOT TO LEAD 2 WOMAN INMATES TO THE LORD FRIDAY NIGHT AT THE JAIL HERE, AND THEN SAT HAD A YARD SALE AND THEN..

. I MISSED CHURCH CAUSE I HURT SO BAD ALL OVER!! SIGH.STINKIN DEVIL!!!GRRRR

I KNOW ITS AN ATTACK.

 ANYWAY I SOO LOVE TO GO TO WOMANS PRISONS AND SOULWIN AND TEACH.

 I RECENTLY GOT A PIT BULL DOG ABOUT 1 YEARS AND SOO MISTREATED,

HE HAS BEEN  TOTALLY TRANSFORMED WITH LOVE AND GOOD FOOD.

 THEY HAVE SUCH A BAD RAP...

 KIND  OF LIKE HOW WE ALL ARE CHANGED BY GOD WHEN WE GET SAVED.:)
 AND NO- ITS NOT BY BAPTISM EITHER...

 ANYWAY JUST HOPING TO HAVE SOMEONE WRITE ME AND BE A FRIEND HERE

AS I AM  ALWAYS LOOKING FOR NEW FRIENDS.

 OK?

 GOD BLESS YOU

Sat, Nov 4th - 6:47AM

SO TIRED.

 SO TIRED,

WILL IT EVER END?

THEY SAY IT WILL- AND I AGREE,

 MUCH LONGER I CANNOT LAST,

I AM LOST IN  ALL THE PAIN ,

I WANT TO LET IT GO,

 AND BE AT PEACE AND HAVE THE JOY

THAT COMES IN HIS  DELIGHT!.

 FOR THERE IS NONE UPON THIS EARTH ,

THAT GIVES ME HOPE TO FIGHT.....

 THIS DEADLY ILLNESS SEEPING IN,

HAS MY COURAGE FADING PAST.

 I AM TOO WEAK TO GO ALONE,

 SO COME LORD -

PLEASE COME  FAST!

Fri, Nov 3rd - 11:26AM

I TRY TO PRAY BUT IT IS HARD,

IT HURTS TO GET DOWN ON MY KNEES..

AND   ALL MY

 MEDICINE ISNT  A CURE FOR TRIALS,

AND HEARTBREAK OF THIS COLD DISEASE

 THAT LIES IN WAIT TO TAKE ME DOWN.

I  JUST CANNOT ACCEPT THAT I AM DONE-

 THE PAIN SHOOTS THRU ME TILL I SCREAM,

AND THEN ANOTHER TASTE OF PILL,

THAT WONT GO DOWN, BUT I KNOW IT WILL...

HOW CAN IT BE?

 ME ?

- A CHRISTIAN WHO  HAS THIS WEAKNESS?

 AN  ALFUL SICK AND FEARFUL  CHILD

 OF THE ONE

WHO MADE ME  SMILE

 IN OLD BEGOTTEN DAYS GONE BY

 WHEN I WAS SERVING ,    WINNING SOULS,!

 BUT NOW I AM  TO SICK  TO GO.

 I HATE THIS WHAT I HAVE BECOME!!

 I WANT TO STILL BE THERE TO HELP

 ANOTHER SOUL TO FIND THE WAY-

 AND YES-

SOMEHOW I HAVE TO TRY

 TO GET BEYOND THIS CLOUD OF PAIN,

THAT THREATENS ME

 WITH MORE TO COME

AND THEN..I KNOW,

I WILL WANT TO HIDE,

UNDER THE COVERS LIKE A CHILD

 AGAIN.

 TO ESCAPE THE  LIFE

THAT I HAVE NOW.

Thu, Nov 2nd - 8:39PM

its back.

 the alful black dispair

 that moves thru me and

 creates a void so dark-

 and growing in my heart

 that no medicine can

  stop this horrid  affair,

 with sadness deep and controlling there.

i am wrung out,

 i am afraid

of what ,i dont know

but am

 aware ,

that something is all around me now-

 the terrible fight or flight is there,

making my insides quake with dread,.

 i want to run and hide! -

but

 cant,

 cause the illness of my brain is real,

 and untill

 i get a touch from God-

ill have this sickening  ,

scary mind.

i cant escape from...

Mon, Oct 16th - 8:18PM

there are two tiny eyes  that stare

 right thru me at times -

i swear!

 and seem to really know that i

 am not the tough  human that tries,

 to be so firm when you want a treat-

 cause you know i will loose that feat!

cause  then when you have finally won....

 youll  lay on  my bed with your sloppy bone...