Thu, Feb 21st - 7:47PM
AFTER MY ALL
Justin McRoberts Sarah took off again
Second time this week
She calls with "Help me man"
And I'm runnin' to her
And after she comes down
Somewhere around 3am
You'd find me on my kness
Looking for some strength again
After my all has been run through
I'll give what's left of me to You
Knowing in time I'll be renewed
And walking again
John's room is 314
Means dad's in ICU
He'll be there three more days
So I'll be there too
With him
And after he is gone
Gun shot to solve it all
I see my efforts fail
And I hit the wall again
After my all has been run through
I'll give what's left of me to You
Knowing in time I'll be renewed
And walking again
Teach me to know that I need You
Simply because, Lord I need You
Not cause I'm tired of what I do
So before my all has been run through
I'll give the whole of me to You
Wait for Your will in all I do
And walk in Your strength In other words, after I have heroically gone through a trial by myself I go to God with whatever I have left. I need to start going to God first, get his guidence and strength, to go through things
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Sat, Feb 16th - 12:13AM
Well, my 15 plus years at my home church has come to an end. It was about four months ago that we prayed earnestly for guidence and decided to stay. Since then, things have gotten worse. I'll leave out the details, if you have been around you have read them more than you cared to. I was hurt and offended before and I tried to stay because I should be able to forgive offense. But now I have been catching the leadership in a few lies. That is enough for us. We have decided to leave, even though we haven't found new church yet. In fact, it seems best to not pressure things , so we will not even look for a church for a while. There are two things I have learned from this process. I think that I had become way too focused on church. My spiritual focus was on my service at church. I was there three or four times a week , running youth, college group, and teaching sunday school. It didn't matter to me how I was doing away from church, how things were going at church was all that mattered. We did some good things at church. I think the leadership was a waste of time, but the work with kids and some of the teaching was useful. But I have learned that life is what happens outside of church. Church is simply what prepares you to live, not the purpose of life. From now on I will try to find somewhere to serve, but my focus will be on how I am living each day, not what program or lesson I have going. The other thing is that I did well spiritually when I was busy in ministry. The business is what kept me going. The real test of my interest in God was when I no longer teaching anything. And I failed pretty badly. My Bible reading, worship time and attitude all suffered greatly when I was outside of church work. Some of that might be because of my disapointment with my church, but it also showed a lack of passion for God. One of the biggest reasons to leave is that I need to reset my attitude and relearn to love God
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Name: Jon Johnson
