Tue, Feb 28th - 12:31PM

Satan you arent so big!!!

You know its so funny how excited i was yesterday about all that God is doing..and then boom, a bomb drops right in my lap!!!

I got a call from my ex mother in law saying that my youngest daughter was really sick with an infection in her spit gland..i called my ex and talked to him and he said she was napping but was ok..then later last night my ex mother in law called back and they had taken my little girl back out to the hospital..i ended up going to bed early and praying myself to sleep and then waking up about an hour later praying again..this morning i called first thing...she has the mumps..they said it would take 7 days to run its course..in the meantime all the kids in the house has a chance of getting it..

i then tried to call my dad...three times..and no answer..i finally called my aunt and she told me he was put in the hospital three days ago..no one even knew until t his morning...i called the hospital and talked to him..he had a minor heart attack but the doctor said he isnt physically well enough to care for himself so they are putting him in the nursing home with my mom..

Satan you will not take away my joy!!!! I know that my daughter is covered by the blood of Jesus and you cannot harm her..!!!! YOu think you might be bringing me down but I know the power of the Almighty God because he is my Father...Take your hands off my family right now in Jesus name!!!!!

Mon, Feb 27th - 2:06PM

whoohooo!!!!

God is sooooooo awesome!!!! My husband and I were approved for a loan on a house..no downpayment, no closing costs...Just what we have been praying for!!!!!

I feel like shouting and dancing and crying all at the same time!!!

Glory be to God!!!!!

Father I want to thank you Lord for working in my life..You are wonderful, beautiful and merciful..You keep your promises Lord...I love you Lord with all my heart, mind, body and soul..and i fall to my knees in praise and worship to you..For you are forever faithful..

Thank you Jesus!!!!!

Sun, Feb 26th - 10:15PM

praises

Praise
Current mood: calm

Today was just sooo awesome!!!! We were all a little tired this morning considering we all went to bed about 4 am and had to get up early for choir practice..When we got there you could just feel the spirit all over the place..The anointing was soo thick..It was all I could do to stand still..I stood there for the longest time fighting the urge to just let go and worship God to the fullest when all of a sudden both my hands shot into the air and i could just feel God wrapping his arms around me...

When we got home, everything was sooo peaceful and calm it was all i could do to stay awake..The anointing stayed with me and when that happens, the peace that surrounds me makes me want to just curl up and sleep..

We went to our first time for the nursing home ministry today..That too was just awesome..it was great to see how the older folks really got into the old songs and it was honestly good to sing some songs that I know...lol

But nothing compared to the service tonight..

And tonight for the first time in a very long time i just let go and worshipped..i didnt care who was watching me, i had both hands up most of the time..the unusual part is i usually dont raise both hands during the faster songs but tonight i couldnt stand still whatsoever..my feet were tapping, my hands were raised and i just felt like dancing..at one point just about every  body in the congregation gathered around the altar and pastor and his wife prayed over every person there..our little sissy stacie ended up being slain in the spirit and it was really an awesome thing to see...

It's been such a long time since i have been in a service like that one. infact, the last time was when i was 11 years old and i was at church camp...

Precious Heavenly Father,

I just want to thank you for such an awesome touch tonight, this morning and this afternoon, and for allowing me to be in your presence today..Father you are so wonderful..so merciful and mighty..when i think of your love for me, i shiver with anticipation at what you are about to do..There is no one that can take your place Father God in my heart..You are more precious than the rarest gem or purest metal..there is nothing in this world that compares to your love in my life..You are the Alpha and Omega..my beginning and my end...Father you are forever faithful..When you are near, my heart flutters with excitement..you are the only one who can make me feel secure, the only one that can protect me and the only one that I know that I can trust..because never once have you let me down...Father i love you with all my heart, mind, body and soul...it is you that shelters me from the storms in my life..the one who holds me when i cry..you are the only one i'll ever need..I lift your name to the highest points and exhult you above all others..Father it is you that i depend on..it is you who strengthens me..You who are above all..my Jesus, my Savior, my everlasting love..When i close my eyes, i feel your embracing me, holding me..telling me that I am yours..I love you Lord..i worship you..i praise you..i fall to my knees crying to you for your love and grace....You Jesus are my all in all..now and forever

Sat, Feb 25th - 2:46PM

Prayer for the day

Most precious Jesus

Thank you Lord for giving me another day..thank you for a good sleep and waking me with your love just over flowing inside my heart..You Lord are forever ever faithful and you never change and for that I am eternally grateful..

Father this afternoon I pray that you give each and every person who reads this a special touch..I may not know the situation they are facing nor the circumstances in their lives, but you do..You know their needs and you said that you would supply all our needs according to your riches in glory. I speak peace, love, and comfort into their lives and pray that they are kept safe according to your perfect will..

Lord I pray that you keep each one of us here safe and in your will..help us not to get in our flesh but to walk in your spirit..Lord you called us to love unconditionally the way that you have loved us and all i want is to serve you and to reach those who are lost and hurting..Lord there are so many others out there who doesnt know you or who are facing abuse or hunger..Send those who need help or just want someone to talk to

Lord you are so merciful..your grace is sufficient enough for me..you are the alpha and omega..my beginning and my end..I need you every day..every hour..every waking moment..I cant live without you, nor do i want to live without you in my life..You are my rock, my sword, my shield, my strength..You are my fortress  and refuge..my counsellor..my shepherd..I am so lost without your love..You have been with me through every situation, even when i didnt know you..your love has been unrelenting..and i am so thankful for you...

I love you Lord with all my heart, mind, body and soul and i just want to praise you for all that you have done, all that you are doing, and all that you are about to do..

I give you all the glory, the honor and praise

In Jesus sweet, precious and mighty name

Amen and Amen

Fri, Feb 24th - 10:45AM

prayer for the day

Father God

As I begin my day this morning, I think of all those out there who are also beginning their day, without you in their life. Lord, touch each heart this morning. Let your ministering angels be with those who need them and just allow the blinders to be taken off their eyes..Father you know each heart and their desires..

I am so thankful Lord for your love that has been unrelenting throughout my life. You've always been a part of me, even when I was walking through the darkness wanting to live my life my way and not wanting to listen to no one else. It is because of you Lord that I live. Because without you I have no reason to live. You have given me a new beginning and for that Lord I will be forever grateful.

Lord I ask a blessing on all those who read this. FAther you know each and every situation..every need and every circumstance. Fulfill every need Father whether it be physically, mentally, emotionally or spiritually Lord.

Father unite all of us here as we help each other every day. Pour out your spirit Father all over each and everyone here. Let your presence be known throughout the day. I bind any attack from Satan and his dominion. You said Lord whatever we bind on earth shall be bound in heaven. I pray a hedge of protection over, under and all around each member of this household and every member of YOUR ministry.

You Lord are so wonderful..there is NOTHING that compares to your love and mercy. There is nothing that we can face here on earth that compares to what you endured as you suffered and died to give us life.

Father i give you all the glory the honor and praise right now in JEsus name..Amen and Amen

Thu, Feb 23rd - 11:25AM

Prayer for today

Heavenly Father,

Lord this morning I come to you with thanksgiving and praise...Thank you Father God for the touch that you allowed me to feel last night..You know exactly what we need, exactly when we need it..You O Lord are worthy of our praises no matter what the circumstances and I rejoice in your love in my life..You loved me Lord when i had no one else..All my life you have been with me even though I didnt know you..Thank you Lord for giving me parents who werent ashamed of you and who knew how important it was to show their children that YOU are all that we'll ever need.

Father I ask that you touch all that read this..bless their families Lord and just enrich their lives..Father you know their circumstances and what is happening with each and every one..just let them feel your touch Lord.

I ask Lord that you bind those in this ministry in unity and love...just let your spirit pour out on them from head to toe...

Today Lord I ask that you allow me to have a good day..Open the doors for a home for me and my family Lord..Open the doors that YOU want to be opened..For you are forever faithful and you promised that you would provide for your children..Lord I stand on your word right now..because I know that YOU cannot lie..

Father take control of my blood sugar...Bring it into submission to your spirit for you said that by YOUR stripes we ARE healed Lord. Bring it back into normal range Father .

You are my rock, my sword, my strength and shield. You are my counsellor and friend..The Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end..YOu are the author of my life and I will look to you for all things.

IN JESUS NAME..

AMEN and AMEN

Wed, Feb 22nd - 2:18PM

The last few days have been pretty good..I've had my down times but I've been able to pick myself up and keep in pretty good moods. I try so hard not to let the feelings show because I feel as if everyone around here has so much that they are trying to handle themselves. So, instead of moping around I'm trying to push through it and pray through it.

I no longer take care of Richard but have a new client. He's a pretty sweet guy. Today was my first day working there and i really enjoyed working. My duties at my new job is so much different. At Richards once the cleaning was done, there was nothing else to do but with this new guy, the duties may not be as much but it takes a little longer to get them done. and once im finished he said that as long as the job is done right, i can leave and he'll report that ive worked the entire scheduled hours..

when i got home today, i ate lunch and sat and talked to stacie and trish while trish was doing hers and stacie's laundry...

i talked to my dad and he was getting ready to walk out the door to go see mom..he says that she still isnt doing really good and that even though the doctor reinstalled the feeding tube she still isnt keeping anything down. the doctor says the huntington's is progressing faster than what he anticipated and that he isnt giving an exact time limit but that he doesnt think mom is going to be around much longer. it does get hard sometimes to face what i know is inevitable, but i just pray that God's will be done because i dont want my mom to suffer anymore than need be.

im so looking forward to seeing my kids..my ex has agreed finally to allow me to have them over the summer. i honestly didnt believe he would. im still waiting tho on the papers from his lawyer. when i talked to his mom yesterday she said that she would talk to him and let him know that i still havent gotten them. im planning to spend some quality time with them and wanting to just shower them with love and affection.

Here at home things are pretty good. I'm so wanting my own place tho. I got word that my husband will be home by the end of march and i want to have our home by then so that we can spend some quiet time together..its been hard to deal with him being gone and at times the lonliness creeps in and my heart breaks..that's usually when i go off into my room and just hold a teddy bear or pray until the lonliness subsides...

Father in Heaven

Lord you know my heart, mind and soul..you know my needs, my fears..all that i cant handle and what i can..Lord i ask today that you reach down and just cradle me..give me strength to endure the lonliness that comes with Danny being gone..Keep him safe and protect him Father God..Place your loving arms around him and just let him feel you..You be his Holy Spirit and let me be the wife that he needs..

Lord bind us girls together in unity and protect the bond that you have placed between us..Help us to reach those who are hurting and lost...those that you place upon our paths..the only thing Lord that really and truly matters is you and you have called us to reach the lost and hurting..Let us be your lights in a world of darkness and let your truth be seen in us..

Lord you are our rock and our salvation, Our beginning and our end..the alpha and the omega..You are our father..our savior, our friend and it is you that we serve and you we look to for everything we need...Let your spirit just be poured out upon us...Lord i ask protection over our lives and our homes and families..We thank you Father for what you have done, what you are doing and all that you are about to do..In Jesus mighty name, Amen and Amen

Sun, Feb 19th - 12:41AM

Prayer

Father God,

I come before you tonight Lord Jesus and lay down all cares and worries before your throne. Lord you know my heart and I ask that you grant me the discernment I need to keep focused on You and Your will. There is nothing else on this earth that matters more to me than serving you. Lead me Lord on the path that you desire for me to take. I know without a shadow of doubt that You called me to where I am. Whatever you want is what I desire for my life. I ask that you reveal to me and lead me on the path that you want me to take Father God.

Lord tonight, I ask that you bind those of us involved in this ministry in unity. Father we know that without you none of this would be possible. Strengthen the love and the bond that you have placed between us and let nothing or no one come between what you have brought together. Father we know that you are the one who placed us all here. And it isnt our place to question or to try to understand but to stand strong and remain faithful to what you have given us.

Lord I ask protection over this household, every person, and even every animal tonight. You know the attacks that satan has tried to bring against us. Help us Father to stand strong in You. Protect our families and each person here.

We praise you Lord for you are forever faithful..We give you our hearts and souls all over again Lord. YOu are worthy of so much more than what we have given you..You are our rock, our strength, our sword and shield..The Alpha and Omega ....The beginning and the end..We look to no other but You for you are the Only God that we will ever serve..We give you all the glory, the honor and the praise right now in Jesus precious and mighty name....Amen and Amen

Sun, Feb 19th - 12:40AM

Prayer

Father God,

I come before you tonight Lord Jesus and lay down all cares and worries before your throne. Lord you know my heart and I ask that you grant me the discernment I need to keep focused on You and Your will. There is nothing else on this earth that matters more to me than serving you. Lead me Lord on the path that you desire for me to take. I know without a shadow of doubt that You called me to where I am. Whatever you want is what I desire for my life. I ask that you reveal to me and lead me on the path that you want me to take Father God.

Lord tonight, I ask that you bind those of us involved in this ministry in unity. Father we know that without you none of this would be possible. Strengthen the love and the bond that you have placed between us and let nothing or no one come between what you have brought together. Father we know that you are the one who placed us all here. And it isnt our place to question or to try to understand but to stand strong and remain faithful to what you have given us.

Lord I ask protection over this household, every person, and even every animal tonight. You know the attacks that satan has tried to bring against us. Help us Father to stand strong in You. Protect our families and each person here.

We praise you Lord for you are forever faithful..We give you our hearts and souls all over again Lord. YOu are worthy of so much more than what we have given you..You are our rock, our strength, our sword and shield..The Alpha and Omega ....The beginning and the end..We look to no other but You for you are the Only God that we will ever serve..We give you all the glory, the honor and the praise right now in Jesus precious and mighty name....Amen and Amen

Fri, Feb 17th - 11:14AM

GRRRRRRR

Today started off on a very sour note..I  had court this morning, and i was hoping that it would be all over but it turns out this morning was just to set a trial date. I was in and out of the court room by 9:10 am and was happy because I thought that i would get a full day in work. Turns out that didn't happen.

It seems as if Satan is really trying to have a ball with me these last few weeks. Its been one attack after the other and I feel as if I'm standing in the middle of a great big abyss with no way out. But I won't stop fighting..I gave up all I had to follow where God was leading me to and I won't stop doing His will because in the end I know that it's my Jesus that will get me out of where I am. And I know that when He comes for His children, I won't be left behind because I know that I am one of His chosen..

Lord I know that you are in control of ALL things and you are in control of my current situation. You said in YOUR word that you would provide all our needs and that your children wouldn't be forsaken or left begging for bread. Lord I leave all this at your feet and ask that you take the hurt and discouragement away..Lift me up Father to where you are and carry me through..Satan, you go back to the pit where you came from!! I am a child of God Almighty and you will not get the victory in my life!!! You may think that you are winning but you aren't because I already know what happens and you lose!!! Father I plead the blood of Jesus over my life and just give you all that you deserve. You are my rock, my shield and strength and everything that I ever longed for is in YOU. Thank you Lord for all that you have done and all that you are about to do. IN Jesus precious name...Amen and Amen

Wed, Feb 15th - 10:03AM

satan you lose!!!

Today I was supposed to have started back on my old schedule at work, but yesterday I ended up being really sick at work and instead of following orders and coming home I refused and worked until it was time for me to come home...So, Richard's wife Phyllis called my employer and told them that she would preferr that I stay  home today because she really didnt want anything brought into Richard that might affect him...So anyways I have an extra day on my hands that I wasnt planning on having so I decided that instead of going back to bed, which I may end up doing anyways..that I would catch up on emails and my blogs...

Satan is such a liar...it seems that every time I get sick or start praising God more that is when he decides that he is gonna rear his ugly head and start trouble, which indeed happened yesterday..and because i was weak and just wanting to give in, he decides that he is gonna attack right here at home...the really bad part is he planted one little seed of doubt between carrie and i and that is all it took...but instead of fighting, all i wanted to do was sleep...

Im so grateful tho that Carrie never gave up and finally sat me down in the office last night and brought everything out on the table...it gave me a while to think and pray and finally i was able to sit down a little later and we were able to finally straighten it all out...

Satan you will not get the victory in our friendship nor you will you get the victory over me...The war has already been fought and guess what.....YOU LOSE!!!!!!!!! So go back to the pit where you came from and keep your ugly head away from God's chozen children.....Jesus right now i want to thank you for not allowing Satan to win...I want to thank you for shedding your blood on that cross so that we might live....I ask you right now to place a hedge of protection around all in this house...around every bond and friendship here that you have brought together for your word says that what you have brought together let NO MAN put assunder and i truly believe that includes satan himself!!!! You are our author and finisher...the Alpha and Omega...The Beginning and the end and it is you that called me to serve and you that i will serve fully the rest of my days...

Sat, Feb 11th - 1:58AM

couple of rocky days

The last few days  have been really hard...Wednesday night, I didnt get a whole lot of sleep because our momma dog went into labor and when i got up yesterday i was really fighting going to work..so Carrie came up with the idea of me calling work and asking if i could go in a little later since they have told me over and over that as long as i work things out with the guy i care for, its ok as long as i get my 20 hours a week in. but when i called phyllis and richard, he had therapy so they said that i could go ahead and take the day off.

My dad called me about 8:30 and told me my uncle had passed away..i honestly didnt know how to react to it..because of somethings that had happened when i was younger, i had avoided him most of my life...so when dad told me what happened, my first thoughts went to my mom, who is not well..and i was hoping and praying that nothing would be said to her because i just didnt think that she could handle it very well...so i spent most of the day worrying over her. last night i couldnt sleep...i tried praying but it felt like my prayers were hitting the ceiling and falling back onto the floor...i got up several times until carrie told me to stop giving in and try to sleep, after that i just laid there listening to the new puppies cry and listening to the radio..i didnt fall asleep until about 6...and carrie was in there at 7:15 to wake me up for work....lol

needless to say i had to push myself pretty hard today...cos i knew that if i sat down that id fall asleep..and when i got home, it was time to take trish to work and come back home and help stacie get ready for her "date" tonight....carrie, trish, gabby and i went to the movies and saw final destination 3, which was a really good movie except for the cussing.. after the movies we went to walmart and carrie bought her some more outfits for church..we went down the isle where they had all the valentine stuff and it hit me that my husband wasnt going to be home and we wouldnt be able to be together for the 2nd year in a row..and i had to leave that isle...then we met stacie and her date outside and we came home..

the last two days have been good ones, but hard also because im dealing with some guilt over my uncle and the way that ive always treated him..i havent always been the nicest person when i was around him and sometimes i was downright rude...and the thing that really bothers me is im always saying that i want to tell the people i love how i feel every day because we never know when God will decide to take them home and yet i dont rememeber once telling my uncle that i loved him.............

Tue, Feb 7th - 8:37PM

Awesome God

I havent posted a blog in a while, so its time to catch up on what's been going on....

Mood wise, I've been up and down. I'm ashamed to say that I let my feelings just about overwhelm me to the point that I was questioning my calling, even though we've started our new church and i've finally started to open up in worship and sing loud enough to be heard.

My prayers have finally been answered and my ex is letting me have the kids for the summer, from the first week of june to august 1st. this is one of the biggest answers to prayer that ive had for a long time. i'll finally get to see my babies and hold them the way i've been longing to.

Carrie and I talked the other day and we've decided that i'm going to stay here until hubby gets home and us go together to choose the house we want. i think its a good idea. so far every house that we've had, ive been the one to choose it and sign all the paper work. maybe this time with my husband's help we'll choose the right one and we can keep it this time.

Work has been ok. its hard to work with phyllis there, and to add to it, she's been in a bad mood for the last several weeks. today tho she seemed more like she did when i first started there. Saturday was Richard's birthday and i wanted so badly to go get him a gift. so when carrie and i went to the swap meet saturday after i got off work, there was this fish light that looks like a fish tank and i got it because i know he likes things like that. ever since i gave it to him on monday, he's been watching it instead of tv..lol

i finally took my car to be looked at and found out that the vibrations are caused by a broken motor mount. so, with my next pay, that will be fixed. i also had to replace the back tire but its all good.

i love singing with the praise team..the services have been really awesome. its amazing how you can feel the spirit of God sooooo mightily up on that stage...i finally opened up and raised both hands the other night and my knees felt so weak that i thought i was going to topple over. carrie and i went out and bought some suits and i finally am wearing heels..hehe..its kind of nice to dress up for once...

well, tonight things here are kind of quiet. carrie and dwayne are out and trish has the puppies outside and stacie is on the ph one with her new "man"...lol the kids are playing video games and we just finished dinner. i plan on going to my room for a while and maybe playing my gamecube or just reading the Bible for a while..

God is awesome, yes he is!!!!!

Thu, Feb 2nd - 12:42AM

Today hasnt been such a good day for me, well I take that back, it had been a good day until tonight after church, but as usual when God  begins to move, Satan tries to rip everything apart......

The plan before I went to bed last night had been for me to get up about 8 and take my car in to have the right front tire fixed. But, when I woke up it was about 10:30 and I realized that I really wouldnt have time to get anything done before having to take trish to work. So, I went to the ATM, withdrew some money, and took my car to the new auto shop there in town. The owner looked at the tire and said it was superficial and that it didnt need repaired and then i told him about some of the other things that i have noticed happening and im supposed to take the car in Friday after 2 so that he can test drive it and tell me what needs to be done and how much its all going to be.

When i got home, i went in to wake Stacie up because trish had to be at work at 2 and stacie had a dr appointment at 3:45 and i didnt see any sense in making several trips since Mckinney is almost 30 minutes away. So when i took trish into work, i went to my bank and deposited a little bit of money and then went to colortyme to pay my laptop payment. then when from there to the dr's office and then home. i only had about ten minutes and i had to leave to go and pick trish up from work. by the time i got home, i barely had time to eat and shower before it was time to leave for church.

the service was awesome. we didnt go up to the kids class tonight because we got there a little late so we stayed in the sanctuary. it was our first wednesday night service that we didnt go help with the kids.

After church, we went to see the pastor's daughter to give her the cd with the song that we want to work with the kids on for the easter program. and we walked back to the sanctuary and as we were walking, we were talking to stacie about the sermon and she really wanted to talk to the pastor so we went back inside to wait.,...

Carrie and I had planned to go to Walmart and Ihop after everyone went to bed and she brought it up to Stacie about her tagging along. Now, normally, it wouldn't bother me. But recently Satan has really been attacking my emotions and I have really been feeling rejected and have been little by little withdrawing again. so, instead of me holding my emotions in check, the showed through clearly. I hadnt spoken my feelings because i didnt want no one thinking or feeling that they were letting me down (Carrie especially). So, I have been taking all this to prayer. I think maybe it was because her suggesting Stacie go was so unexpected that i just couldnt mask it.

I ended up walking out and going to the car, praying as i was walking. Usual though, i'm ok after just a few minutes but this time it was like a knife slicing through me because i was really looking forward to some alone time, one on one time just carrie and myself (something that doesnt happen very often anymore.) i then ended up walking across the street to the library and sitting on t he wall talking to trish until i noticed that something was leaking from my car. so i had to get down on the ground and check it ou t. i wanted to make sure it wasnt oil or anything like t hat. Thankfully it was just water......

So, after carrie and stacie come out of the church and we all get in the car, Carrie asks if we all want to go to starbucks. I didnt feel like choosing, honestly at that point and time, i wanted to come home and go to my room so that i could pray through it. So, when it was decided that we were going to starbucks, Carrie proceeded to ask what was bothering me, and i again responded in a way that i normally wouldnt telling her that i didnt want to talk about it. usually when she asks, i tell her straightout. i know it hurt her.i didnt mean to, but i know it did....i just didnt want to talk about it in front of everyone.

the thing is, we all have an agreement here, NO SECRETS. its not that i want to keep anything from anyone. its just that i dont feel comfortable sitting in front of everyone and talking about what's on my heart. used to i would send a very long email and let carrie know exactly what im feeling. but i have been trying not to do that anymore (for different reasons).

Anyway, i think things are pretty well smoothed over, atleast i pray that they are. i know that all this is just one big ole attack from Satan......