Sun, Jun 25th - 2:13AM

i cant have them disrespecting me nor any one else and their dad just seems to be oblivious because he says they dont act this way when they are around him...i know that there is alot of anger issues because i have been gone and i really didnt expect them to even want to come out here but they did...its kind of strange because the issues dont really start happening until late at night or if i leave and have to have a sitter...but as it turns o ut...instead of taking them home this coming weekend they will be staying another week..im praying that i have some type of impact on them before i take them back...

one thing is momma has a hard time standing her ground with them...i dont want tto make them upset because its been such a long time since they've seen me but i want them to see the changes that are there that havent come out...so far all they have seen is the old me, except my son says im too strict...i was supposed to have come out here for a new start but it seems to me that im failing in every way..i feel as if i've failed my kids and failed God

where did i go wrong?