Thu, Jan 10th - 10:10PM
Just trying to pass on what has been up with me...
Like most of us, I am myoptic in my view of my own life, but I will share what I see.
Long and short, I have had less time that I can spend here.
I cannot post from work. I could read, but honestly, I lack the discipline to read and not post, so for the most part, I do not venture here from there. That really cramps my style, and breaks my habits of coming here as one of the first places I do go when surfing the 'Net.
I've been working on the house, which I need to refinance since the ARM kicked in. That took some time, too. (and still working on the refinance, so there you have something that can pop up on me anytime...)
I did 14days straight of Military time late in November to Early in December, and that was not the best time for me. It was 12 hour plus days, and no days off for almost a dozen of them. I kind of lost my temper with my supervisor there. No big trouble for me, but not the shining example I think I should be, I am afraid. I sulked a bit and refused to talk to you about my failure in that. Not what I think I should do. And it is a vicious circle when you start doing that. Forgive me.
My ISP for my site changed things again, so I am starting over on rebuilding my site with someone else. Their (my old ISP's) attitude more than anything prompted the change. That may be for the best, for it allows me to start over fresh and modify some of my thinking. I spend time tinkering there when I could be here. Sorry about that! I enjoy programming, even though I don't like redoing what I did before...
Things are way out of kilter for others around me, and of course that effects me. I don't feel free to talk about their issues, but it is not about me anyways, so don't fret on my behalf. I am ok in all of this, just frazzled a little by it.
I don't feel right posting when I cannot read what others have posted. I know that seems silly, but it is the way I feel. So I need to spend more time getting around to all of you guys. I feel that is what blocks me the most.
I do enjoy my time here, so none of you should think you have anything to do with me being here less. I would not want to let you think that was the case. It is so very far from the truth. No, this is more about finding the time again and adjusting schedules, etc. If you were to even be trying to drive me off, you'd find that very hard to do.
I changed my commitment to weekly instead of daily for what I hope are still light studies or readings. I was not making it close to daily. I could post more often, and would like to try and do that. So you can ask the Lord for that on my behalf if you like. I will not object. I just cannot in faith commit to more than what I have. Maybe I need more faith. Ask what you will, I am open to what will come.
I am tired and rambling a bit. I am thinking I said what I need, but maybe something you say will make me realize I have not. We'll see, I guess...
Grace and Blessings,